Change...

It is, a time for change.  A time for renewal.  A time to make decisions.  Decisions that can impact my life forever. I have made a well informed choice to move forward in my life.  December will be my month for preparation.  This chapter in my life is complete, and I will savor the memories until and after my change comes.  My life has been chaotic this ENTIRE year, but I have learned and grown so much because of the chaos.  If it were not for all of the chaos, I would not have put things into perspective.  The things that I am extremely grateful for today, are the same things that I took for granted this time last year.  My New Year will be the start of the next chapter in my life.  I intend to love harder than I have ever loved before.  I intend to give more than I have ever given before.  Most importantly, I intend to grow with God more than I have ever grown before.  I view the New Year as another opportunity to make things "new".  My newness will not include some people for many different reasons.  My change will consist of loving those that love me.  My change will consist of getting closer to those that desire to be closer to me.  I will love everyone else from afar.  I love because I love.  I am in love with him because he is in love with me.  Our time has come.  I have been waiting my entire life for this.  The wait is over...for now.   Living, loving, and loving some more.  carry on

He is...AWESOME

Great Satisfying Sunday! God is deliverer, a provider, a healer. I unintentionally jacked up my back on Friday. By Saturday evening, I could barely walk (I'm sure cat crawling didn't help it any), but anyways, I came home, laid hands on myself, and bind the spirt of pain and agony. I prayed for ALL of my loves, and got an amazing connection with God before I went to sleep. I slept harder than a rock. Apparently, I talked on the phone with a couple of people during the night. When I woke up, I did not remember if it was a dream or an actual conversation. Now...back pain gone! God is awesome! I am so glad I know him for MYSELF. If you don't know, you better get to know. He makes life worth living. I am Blessed, I am loved. Living, loving, and loving some more. carry on

Preparing for a NEW Beginning

Great morning. I have joy in my spirit, a song in my heart, and a word in my mouth. Its time to mentally and spiritually prepare for the end of 2011. Make it a point to allow the beginning of 2012 to be a "NEW beginning". Take a look at your lives and a look at your loves. Cling to the ones you love and are loving you in return. Continue to cling, and don't let go. But, starting today, look at YOUR situation. If you are making him a priority in your life, but he treats you like an option, its time to consider other options. I have to say, for whatever reason, God has given me many options. I am grateful for that. I have faith that the option I have chosen, is the one that God wants me to choose. If not, time will reveal. Regardless, it was my choice to make, and I am standing by it. I miss you, Babe! Living, loving, and loving some more. carry on

A New Life for Old Souls

Today is a day that I will ALWAYS remember. Two people that I hold near and dear to my heart will be saying farewell to their loved ones. My sister,Rhonda Denise Hayes McFadden's aunt will have her homegoing, and my best male friend Sylvester Mcswain, will say to his mother, "I will see you in heaven." Both will be at 11:00 am. Not a coincidence. I will be in prayer at the 11th hour. My prayers are with both of them and their families. I love you both. Living, loving, and loving some more. carry on

When I Love...

When I love, I love with everything in me.  At the age that I am, I have not experienced actually loving a MAN with everything in me.  I am totally capable of this, but the men that I have had in my life are not very receptive of it.  The ONE man that can handle my love, ALL of my love, will be the happiest King in the world.  Taking me for granted, not a good idea.  Taking advantage of my love for you, not a good idea.  Allowing me to walk away, the worst mistake of your life.   I am the best, and I will give my man the best treatment possible.  Losing me is something that all of the men in my past wish he had not done. Loving everyone is the easy part.  Falling in love with a man, a little more difficult.  Walking away from that man, almost impossible.  Key word...ALMOST.  I come first, I love me first, then I can love my man in a way that only Atanya can love.  Embrace my love, accept the gift I am giving you.  This can not be replaced or duplicated.  Atanya's love is not an imitation, it is the real deal.  Living, loving, and loving some more.   carry on

Learn to Love...Unconditionally

Bitterness, hurt, anger, all of these things can manifest into hate. I am not one to speak negatively of the men in my life, especially on a public venue such as this. Man bashing...not my thing. I accept people for who they are, humans. We ALL are natural first. Regardless of what anyone does to me or say about me, I will not stoop to their level. Atanya is responsible for Atanya's actions. No one else. You are responsible for your actions. If you are a Christian, you must consider this. When much is known, much is required. Do not do or say things that YOU will have to reap for, 10 fold. Women, love the men in your life and treat them like Kings. That's what it means to be a true QUEEN. Our actions are based on our choices, not on the actions of others. Choose ye this day who you will serve. Man or God? Serving God means that He has your vengeance. Pray for those who hurt you. If your prayers are sincere, your heart will hurt just knowing that your offenders will reap for their actions. All I can do is love you, its up to you if you accept. But, even if it is rejected, I still love you. My spirit will not allow me to do anything else. Living, loving, and loving some more. carry on

Happy for...EVERY Reason

Great morning! Up and at 'em, once again preparing for battle. Feeling good, looking great, living large in the name of Jesus. I have received many positive Praise reports this morning, and it just boosted my spirit even higher. I feel that the tides have turned, and God is honoring our faithfulness. He has brought us to it, to bring us through it. I have been through the fire, but I am coming out smelling and feeling brand new. He never ceases to amaze me. Even in the midst of this crazy year, He has kept my attitude positive, and my Spirit peaceful. During all of this, I have made new life long friends, I have severed ties with old friends, and I have connected with ONE person on a level that I have not in quite a long time. I am Blessed, Blessed, Blessed! I am excited to see what the future holds for me and my family, me and my friends, and me and my Babe. I must say, I am smiling from ear to ear with a big KOOLAID smile on my face. No one will turn this smile upside down. I will be happy, I will be joyful, I will be grateful, for the alternative is not an alternative and is not an option. Living, loving, and loving some more. carry on