Hello Loves! Needless to say, my focus has not been where it used to be. Since my last blog, I have had so many things going on in my life. Some things were a distraction, others were a reaction. None the less, I have been overwhelmed. I may have been focused on things that served no purpose. I may have been focused on things that were not designed to strengthen me. All and all, I was focused on something. Ultimately, my focus has changed. I am still striving for clarity and confirmation. Clarity has come, in some instances. But, in others, I am just as cloudy as I was a month ago. I find comfort in knowing that God is not a God of confusion. So, my lack of clarity is not of Him. It is of ME. I will not give the devil credit for anything.
Everything is not of the devil. I will take responsibility for my own thoughts, my own actions, and my own lack of following God's lead. Even though I may not understand where God is leading me, or why He is leading me in the direction I am going. I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that His lead is the only one that will guide me to victory. He will show me the way, and ensure that my path is well lit. The shadows that come to bring darkness and gloom will be non existent. The straight and narrow is where I desire to be. Challenges, many challenges, are evident and designed to tempt me to stray.
Straying is not always a bad thing, but straying too far can be catastrophic. In the midst of all of my madness, I have not, and will not meet my demise. Despite my brief moments of misguided movements, I remind myself that I am the ruler of my own destiny. No one else's. The destiny that I choose, is the one that God has planned out for me.
His plan is perfect. I have no complaints. It is not by my own understanding. I had to bring myself back to the place where I FIRST believed. That moment when the Spirt of God gave me a joy that nothing can compare to. I received it then, and I receive it now! I had to find the power to invoke something that had faded, but was never lost. When I finally connected with that magnificent joy, my storms were calmed. My storms dissipated. My Spiritual empowerment was again MY rock!
I still can't identify exactly what happened that caused my Spirt to be weakened, but I am stronger because of it. At no point should we allow the cares of this world to put us in a place of forgetfulness. Remembering to be grateful for what God has done, what He's doing, and what He's going to do, is thought provoking enough to deter any and all attacks we are experiencing. It needs to be said, most of our attacks are self inflicted.
Most of what we go through is caused by our own choices. Our own decisions. Not mistakes, choices. We choose to do what we do. Especially when we are totally aware of the potential consequences. We appease ourselves by calling what we do "mistakes." Mistakes are only evident when we are not aware of the potential consequences. When we KNOW what can happen because of our actions, or lack there of, then we are making a choice. Choose wisely.
"Choose you this day whom ye will serve...But as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.
- Joshua 24:15
carry on
