Hello Loves! My transitions have been phenomenal, but tiring. This entire year has been a year of clarification, revelation, and manifestation. My faith is great, I feel Spiritually empowered! But, in the midst of all of the wonderful things that God has shown ME, I have come to the recollection that people do not KNOW me.
It's an eye opening experience when the people that you thought knew you, really don't KNOW you. To know me is to know God. He is my everything. Your specific prayers to Him will reveal everything you need to know about me. Key word, "NEED". It is not necessary for everyone to know everything about you. When you look at me, what do you see?
Beneath all of the polish, class, and beauty, there is an inner me. The inner me is the most important part of me. It defines who I am, and it proves that I am who I say I am! Not that I live for the approval or acceptance of others. But, I LIVE for the approval and acceptance of others. The reason being is this. God made me who I am for a reason. He has given me the mind, and put me in a place of leadership. The fact that I claim to be His, I must live as if I am His. The Jesus in me, is what I want others to see. But, it's kind of hard to see that, relate to that, or accept that, if you are not a true believer. If you do not have a personal relationship with Christ, there is no possible way that you can have the Spiritual eye that it takes to see "ME".
"ME", yes "ME", who am I? What do others see? I had to put myself in a place of a strange and unknown person. I had to look at myself as if I had not been with myself my entire life. I had to view myself as a person that has never been introduced to Christ. That was a lot harder than I thought it would be. From my perspective, I was successful in this endeavor. As I looked at myself through the eyes of a stranger, I noticed some things that did not set me apart from others.
My greatest desire is to be what God desires me to be. To be this, I need to be set apart from others. To sum it up. I must seem strange and peculiar to the believers and to the non believers. The fact that I had become very impatient with people, and God, did not set me apart from others. I love people because I love people, so I thought. The fact that I would pick and choose who to openly love, did not set me apart from others. Most importantly, my moments of boredom, anxiety, anger, agitation, lust, irritation, and above all, my moments of feeling unfulfilled! These things made me look just like everyone else. Through the eyes of a stranger, this can make me seem unapproachable, unhappy, selfish, self absorbed. All of these perceptions are perceptions that are not of God. I need to be seen as a Woman of God. I need to be seen as strange and peculiar. I need to be seen as LOVE! Love is the greatest gift of all. If these things can not be seen through the eyes of a stranger, then I have defeated myself.
Self defeat is not an option. God has already made provisions so that we can be undefeated. We, yes WE, put ourselves in a place of self destruction! If we have gotten to the point that we no longer find it necessary to look at ourselves through the eyes of a stranger, we need to accept the fact the we have sabotaged our own salvation. The devil doesn't have to do anything. We are unintentionally tearing down the Kingdom of Heaven. We are supposed to be Kingdom Builders. We are not perfect. We are in the flawed flesh. Knowing God, having a personal relationship with Him, and being Spiritually empowered does not make us perfect. It makes us perfect for GROWTH.
Go with God. Grow with God. Never forget where you came from. Never forget who you used to be. Never forget that when much is known, much is required. Never forget to look at your OWN self, through the eyes of a stranger. I love you! carry on
