Strange and Peculiar II

I'll be the first to admit, I am different.  I am strange and peculiar.  I will also admit that once I allow a man to get close to me, and really see how different I am, they tend to be very uncomfortable.  I am one whose life is usually a chaotic mess, and I am under constant attack.  Some would think that I am a bad person or I am reaping for something that I have done.  That is not the case.  The peace that everyone sees on the outside, is because of the peace that God has given me on the inside.  I thrive on the opportunity to grow Spiritually, the gift that God has given me makes me a very hard target for the enemy and his imps.  My gift of discernment has not and will not fail me, as long as I stay faithful unto God.  Because of this, my attacks are great and continuous.  Unless you are a God fearing man, truly a God fearing man.  You will not be able to comprehend or deal with this difference that is in me.  I live, breathe, and think Jesus, all day everyday.  I am very rarely caught off guard when it comes to any games or tricks played by men, or people in general.  Most people think that I am just smart and wise beyond my years.  It is so much more than that.  I am a child of God.  I have been given a gift that I use at God's convenience.  I have no control over what I do or do not discern.  But, the closer I get to God, the stronger my gift becomes.  

It's sad to say, things can be very confusing when I become emotionally attached to someone.  This is common for me, because I love everyone.  Regardless of what anyone has ever done, or tried to do to me, I still love them.  I will not retaliate or seek vengeance.  This has a tendency to make me seem gullible or weak.  I am far from that, I am strong in the Lord and have no desire to be anything other than the positive person that I am.  I am Blessed and Highly favored.  It is obvious in my attitude, my persona, my children, my family, and my friends.  But, I too, need someone to love every part of me.  Even the strange and peculiar parts.  I love the man that loves those parts of me most.  As of right now, God is the only one that has been able to fully embrace my differences.  What God has for me is for me, and I know that the man God has for me will be totally prepared to deal with me.  Yes, it takes time for someone to get to that point.  But, at least he is making an effort.  As he grows in God, his clarity will also grow.  I will not have to explain anything about myself to him, God will reveal it to him in His own time.  My man will walk my Spiritual walk with me, and accept me for "who" I am...no questions asked.  Living, loving, and loving some more.   carry on

For the Love of Man

As women, we have a tendency to go above and beyond for the love of a man.  Sometimes, it's for a man that does not appreciate us, and does not show that same love in return.  We cook for him, we clean for him, we say the supportive words needed to give him strength.  But, at what point do we realize that, the love we give may never be returned to us  on the same level.  Man was created in God's image.  Period!  Woman was created as a gift to man.  It's no wonder why we love harder, we love longer, and it takes a lot more for us to move forward after a love is lost.  Our love was created purposefully to be pure and unconditional.   We have to learn how to love and leave.  We have to learn how to love from afar.  It's ok to love, and to love everyone.  But, it is not ok to feel hurt when we are giving our love.  The giving of love is supposed to be a fulfilling thing.  Learn to understand that a woman's  love is different.  Learn to understand that the fulfillment we get in loving others may not be something that most men are capable of obtaining.  It's not that men are not loving, they just love differently than we do.  We love because we were created to love.  God never said that we would receive the same love in return.  We should require that we receive good, unconditional love in return.  But, we need to remember, conditions are different for a man.  Being sympathetic to men and the way they love, is a start.  But, being sympathetic to ourselves and the way we love is how it should be finished.  It is our choice who to love and how to love, so we think.  If you ask me, I think we were just born to love everyone, without thought.  I said all of that to say this, we have to do nothing for the love of God!  The fact that God loves me better than I can love myself, and better than I can love anyone else, is reason enough for me to continue to love the way I love.  I will not change my personal style of loving, unless I change to love harder, to love better.  I can deal with a man not loving me in return, the way I love him.  But, I can not deal with God not loving me in return, the way God loves me.  No one loves me better than God.  I love knowing that.  It makes sharing my love that much easier.  Living, loving, and loving some more  carry on

He's Good

God is good!  That is all.  Good night!   carry on

We Danced in the Rain!

There seems to have been constant attacks on a level that most of us have never seen before.  Before we could completely claim victory over one issue, another one presented itself with a vengeance.  There was no breaks in the clouds, no breaks in the sorrow, no sun, and no rainbows.  But, yet we maintained our faithfulness.  The last year was one constant storm, which consisted of countless down pours.  We had no understanding as to why things were coming at us at such a magnitude.  At one time or another, we even doubted ourselves.  But, we found the energy to dance in the rain.  The rain drops on our faces hid the tears we were shedding.  We became Spiritually empowered before, during, and after our monstrous tsunami!  We never doubted our faith in our God.  When we felt weak, our trust in Him gave us strength.  When we felt burdened down, His unconditional love for us carried the load.  I am here to serve notice, the storm is over.  Really, it is.  Praise God for your deliverance and for His Mercy and Grace.  He brought us to it, to bring us through it.  The storm is over...now.  Living, loving, and loving some more.   carry on

You are..."You"

I find it interesting that so many people are claiming that they are going to make a change for the New Year. For the most part, I believe change is good. But, some people are making changes in areas that even I know they can not follow through on. Change should consist of bettering yourself, but also something that YOU can actually maintain. Changing you does not necessarily mean changing "you". Continue to be who you are, no one can do that better than you can. Changing you can cause you to become someone else. You might not like being that "other" person. Your changes should require self acceptance. If you can not accept yourself now, how will you accept yourself later? First, you need to accept yourself as you are. Then you can make "adjustments". Your personality is your personality. Personalities are almost impossible to change. Perception, actions, reactions, or lack there of, are things that can be changed. Stay true to you, keep yourself. Don't lose yourself in the process of change. I am me, I accept me, I love me, I adore me. Try telling yourself this, EVERYDAY. Invoke your own positivity, and self adjustments will come naturally. Living, loving, and loving some more. carry on

ROI...Return on Investment

Good day my Loves! Once again, God has given us another opportunity to enjoy another beautiful day. The year started off rough for some, but the power of prayer will soften your road. I have come to the realization that I will need to make an even greater effort to obtain the greatest ROI possible. I invest my time, my love, my prayers, and my positive attitude whenever the opportunity presents itself. Now, my focus has changed. I intend to CREATE opportunities rather than waiting for them to come to me. People can be hesitant to reach out, so I have to find the time to branch out. I will connect with the people that need me the most. There is enough of me to go around. I have enough love for everyone. It's time to share myself with the needy, and time to stop the greedy from hoarding my time, love, and attention. THE Beautiful One is coming your way. In person, in prayer, or virtually. I will connect with more, I will touch more lives, and I WILL make a difference! Living, loving, and loving some more. carry on

God is...Unchanging

Sometimes, God will allow a physical separation, so that we can mentally separate from those things or people that He wants us to turn over to Him. From the perspective of an over achiever, it's really easy to say, "I worked too hard, I prayed too long, I loved unconditionally, and I have cried too much to let the enemy take control of my life or my children". But, what we need to say is, "I have remained faithful and God sees my faithfulness. I am too Spiritually powerful to even let the enemy think that he has won". The New Year has brought many disappointments for so many people all ready. What better time for the enemy to attack, than at the moment when we are happiest, and looking forward to a new beginning. Know him when you see him coming. Keep the faith. Keep the joy you felt when the year turned. God is the same God that we worshipped in 2011. The year has changed, but God is unchanging. It's time to cling to him tighter than ever before. Choose your battles. All others; pray, leave, believe, and receive. God's got it. The war is not ours! Living, loving, and loving some more. carry on